In Toronto with Peter Oundjian
My Schumann adventures are slowly coming to an end - after the three performances in Berlin and Portland I played it now twice in Toronto with Peter Oundjian and his wonderful Toronto Symphony. I feel so fortunate of having played this complicated piece with three quite different (but all very strong) conductors where the music making was very spontaneous and inspiring.
The famous "Hole" after a big date...
Do you know this feeling of falling into some kind of hole after having finished something important? I used to have this feeling after finishing high-school, after youth-competitions, after my first concerts, and now, since concerts have become a more frequent occurrence and I can't afford to fall into holes all the time (as much as I would love to), the magic hole only opens for the most stressful events.
Schumann Concerto with Berlin Phil and Thielemann
When I was about 20 years old, I had horrible problems with my nerves, bow shaking, sweaty fingers, the full monty. By taking myself out of the center of my attention rather consciously, I managed to overcome this difficult situation, but in special stress situation I still experienced bad nerves which made me play worse. The concerts I am doing right now kept me in suspense for a couple of days, could hardly think about something else: Berlin Philharmonic, the orchestra of my dad, the orchestra I grew up with.I don't know if I was more nervous for playing with them or just afraid and nervous of my nerves themselves. What could I do to avoid a collapse? I prepared myself for the worst case scenario: everybody would be very hostile, the conductor, Christian Thielemann, would not agree with anything I am trying to do, I'd loose all my self-confidence and really play badly. Paint the mammoth to the wall before trying to fight it...
Short trip to London
This little trip couldn't have been more efficient: my pianist Markus Becker and me flew into London last night, arrived at 7:50 pm after a day of rehearsals in his hometown Hanover, and left today at 8:15 pm after our lunchtime concert at LSO St.Lukes.
Saint-Saens Concerto in San Antonio
Yes, I escaped the winterstorms in Germany and travelled for 20 hours to San Antonio for two concerts of Saint-Saens. Crazy? No, travelling is fun: I watched the new James Bond movie and "Dreamgirls", read my book (Shalimar the Clown by S. Rushdie), slept 3 hours and was almost sad, that the journey was over so quickly.
...and after the performance
After doing the Haydn D now for the fifth time this year, I slowly get the hang of it. Now I understand why some musicians tend to play the same pieces over and over - it does get easier after a while.
Prokofiev Sinfonia Concertante in Amsterdam
I don't know if anybody might find it interesting what I have to say after a perfomance, especially since I stated in an earlier blog that I am my own worst judge, that I never know how I played. But at least I know what I felt, and I asked you now to say if I should continue writing directly after concerts or not.
Haydn in Nashville - bad travelling...
There seems to be some kind of curse on my travelling to the US this year. Already the trip to San Diego was in both direction hindered by missed or cancelled planes. To Utah the same thing, and now I had to fly to Nashville....It started already on the day of my departure. My original flight from Berlin via Frankfurt and Washington was supposed to leave at 2:35 pm on Feb 13. That gave me enough time to practice in the morning, go to my weekly tennis lesson (which I missed already 4 times in a row this year...), shower, pack, lunch with wifee and travel - well, when I got home after tennis at 11:50 am there was a message on my cellphone informing me, that my flight Frankfurt-Washington had been cancelled, the only chance would be to fly via Munich, at 12:50 pm.
Prokofiev Sinfonia Concertante in Utah
Just got back to the hotel after playing a run-out performance with the Utah Symphony in Ogden, 32 miles from Salt Lake City.I had to play one of my favourite concerti, the Sinfonia Concertante by Prokofiev, a piece which works really well if one takes the markings of the composer seriously - shaves off about 10 minutes from performances. Actually rather simple: just don't drop to half speed whenever there is a slow tune to milk. Think long lines, think like a singer, and immediately the piece grows and becomes much more effective.
Never Sick...
I am never sick. Actually I am normally even bragging about my desire to "sick", thinking of being able to stay in bed all day, to read books, papers, to listen to music, hoping of hot tea and the pity of the loved ones... Well, what can I say - after the snow storm in Dallas couldn't stop me on my way back to Europe, and the century storm "Kyrill" two days later delayed my homecoming from Jersey for only five hours, it was my son Janos who gave me his infection - a little flew.
Elgar and Sports in San Diego
The last few days have been a reminder to me why I love so much what I am doing: to play a beautiful piece with an enthusiast orchestra and a very fine conductor while having time to do some outdoor activity and making new friends - what else could one want from life?
Concentration
Bob asked in one of the last Blogs how my Reger went last week. The situation was that I tried to force myself to learn music which I have to play respectively record next year.
We are our own worst judges
How was your concert? - I never know how to answer this question. I don't know, honestly, how good (or bad) a concert was I played in myself. Why is that? Because we are our own worst judges.
On Tour with my son János
For the first time ever I had to take my son János to concerts with me, because his mother has some on her own somewhere near Miami.
Werktreue - faithful rendition
Today I received very respectful criticism in a cellist forum about the freedom I take while playing Bach. This is one of my favourite subjects since, and here is my answer.
Willkommen zu Alban's Blog
Since a while I started thinking of starting my own blog in order to get some more feedback from fellow musicians or general audiences about the way I see, feel and understand music making, the music "scene" or business as well as general things in culture. I have no idea if there is a real interest for this, but I thought I'd check it out and see what happens...